That’s a Bon Jovi quote! “Welcome to wherever you are”. A
very awesome underrated song, if you ask me. So many crazy things have happened
(and still happening) in my life. Seriously, so many to jump right into it!
First off, after three months of mental recuperation and
reorganization of what has happened, I’m feeling more optimistic about taking
new challenges and reaching different goals at my new work place. I am now
holding a Managerial position at an Investment Bank! It’s my first management level title and, I
guess, all my hard work especially in last few years is finally paying off... The
new job came with a whopping salary hike, pleasant office environment,
ergonomically friendly furniture/cubicle, in-house paid parking space, very
attractive staff benefits and… I get to be in charge sometimes! And most
importantly what I’m really relieved about is my new work place and the
diversity. Any individual who is talented,
smart and experienced is equally holding decent positions regardless of their gender,
ethnicity, age, social status and education background.
Anyway, after experiencing my world come crashing down not
so long ago, I’m now feeling better about what I can achieve. I’ve been
hurtling through life, always feeling I needed to work harder, be stronger, and
push myself to the limit with bigger challenges. My mind never stopped fretting
and stressing about whether I was good enough, clever enough, strong enough;
whether I could really make big ambitions a reality. I guess I was over ambitious
as well! And, I was also cursed with “invincibility of youth’ syndrome, with
symptoms including impulsiveness, recklessness, carelessness, idealism and
underestimating danger and difficulty. However, after what has happened I can
say that I’m feeling more focused and optimistic about taking on new challenges
and reaching different goals right now – in a more mellowed down manner. I
suppose, I’ve calmed down, slowed my mind a bit and of course having different
perspective on life & people.
And that’s how it goes. Life moves on… and rapidly!
It makes me think of Bill Bridges’ work transitions. In
it, Bridges says all transitions have an ending, neutral zone, and new
beginning. But many people get hung up on the ending and never let go. And, so
was I… for last three months! I was grieving the past and was angry, bitter, frightened,
sad and confused. Part of me secretly wanted the person(s) who cause this pain to
feel the same someday. I guess, the beauty of the transition is to let go of
the past. To keep moving… to look at new beginnings! But come to think of it,
it wasn’t that hard after all. It was a painful journey though everything fell
into right place/way eventually. It was a classic illustration for me, when one
door closes, another one opens. And the universe was very gentle with me… for
last three months I’ve been wondering how and most importantly what just
happened? And why? What can I say, it was just like Charles Dickens words
"It was the best of times, it was the worse of times”.
In other news, I’ve decided to try my luck on opening my
own business. I’ve registered a company on my name. I’m very excited about this.
It’s nothing big actually just some eCommerce stuff with my brain, knowledge
and experiences as a capital, working on it in my spare time whenever possible.
It’s something like how to turn what I’ve already know about my work into… $$$.
Hope it’ll work out! But I’m just doing it for fun and to keep me occupied.
And, I love working actually, and I love doing this for myself.
This is all crazy life-altering stuff that’s happening to
me, in the midst of all this, there’s this person that I can’t get off my mind.
So I want to blog about that too, because that’s what you do with stuff on your
mind, you write about it. Well that person is super awesome and funny and we
get along so well. And I’m excited! It’s a good thing right?
