women, sucha complicated creatures

women are hard to understand. true, but only the best of guys have the ability to understand and compromise women. They are the kind of men worth loving a lifetime. According to some unsolicited sighs and some opinions, here are some of the things guys hate in girls:

• Women are too emotional.
• Women take too long to dress.
• They hug fellow girls. wouldn't be a bit awkward to see guys hugging or holding hands?
• Women take you shopping with them so that she can have someone to hold her shopping bags. and we just love guys who love to shop and never complain.
• Women talk a lot. about things guys dont even care about.
• Girls give meaning to things. like when you pick up her books, blah blah. there's a whole bible for these.
• Girls tend to be manhid. they dont realize the ones who really love them
• Girls are silly. they cry over guys who are not really worth the pain.
• Girls cry a lot. it annoys the guys, a lot.

okay, so let me get this clear. We're girls, it's not our fault if we're made this way, and we are exact opposites of the guys. And fyi, not all girls are like that, they generalize too much. Sure, i admit, im an anti-men, and proud of it baby! but i am not all that against guys. In fact, I love them, especially little older type (u know, d mature type) but i just wish they were a bit more sensitive, especially with the girl's feelings. Sometimes they seem to us the most abominable creatures on earth, we'd rather talk to dogs than fill our minds with the silly things guys say such as basketball, computer games and wrestling. God, how I would love to kick the heads of those guys. *sorry Lord, i'll restrain from these thoughts. haha*

so there you have it, are we really the complicated creatures or would the title suit more for the guys? i wish i knew. but for me, either way, we are all complicated. that's what makes it such fun!

of female and pain

Last night I couldn’t sleep well because I had a friggin awful period pain and I could’ve taken some painkillers except for the fact I have some sorta psychological macho thing against pills. It’s been a long time since I have to endure period pain like what I am experiencing now. Perhaps it’s because of the irregularities and because I didn’t get it last month, it’s a combination of two months, hence the pain. It’s like having contractions, but it comes and goes. It is not normal pain; it is excruciating type of pain.

If I remembered correctly one gynae told me the pain will reduce significantly with age but it seemed to be getting worst but then again what would I benchmark the pain against since my period is very irregular?Before you suggest, yes, I had seen many doctors and each time was given a hell lot of medication to take to regulate them but none seemed to work.

Work! Work! Work!

It’s my second week at work. Gosh! The new place is indescribable, im actually having mixed feeling ‘bout the whole new job thingy. Not sure, whether it’s a good place to work. In the past, it was difficult at the Club and NST (with the hardheaded lady-bosses) but at least the job gave me some sort of contentment. I did learn some stuff.

But now I’m having doubts about my status here. And of course the people, PEOPLE!!!. Nowadays, im feeling very tired, I’m jus so soooo tired of being nice to people. I had enough of dramas at the Club. I think for some reason, this time around Im giving up (subconsciously) . And I am keep telling myself that I am not going to show any extra effort to be nice to anyone. Coz it’s so tiring. Why should I? I’m sick of pretending, all I wanna do is jus be myself (u know, d usual grumpy self). The whole time when I was at the Club, all I did was tried so hard to be nice to everyone... look what happened in the end? i got kicked left right and everywhere else. I’m not goin to go thru all that things again. NO!

On the other hand, while the work dilemma is still there, I’m actually glad that I have a real job right now. In a point of fact, it was tough! Tough lookin for a suitable job and i hate looking for one! I never had so much of trouble finding one actually, and I bet it’s all because I really needed one this time. Anyway thanks to uncle manjeet, benny and his bro steve for recommending this job for me. I really appreciate it. I o u guys, except, i’m not sure how long I’ll hang about here. But I guess, for time being its alrite.

thomas the tank engine

I'm sure all of you know who Thomas is... A train known to a lot of kids, especially Sohrab (two and half) who is crazy about them. He is totally fascinated with the them. He has almost the whole collection of them both in die-cast and wooden collection. Yesterday, I managed to get another one (Douglas – the battery operated type) as a gift for Sohrab... it is something I wanted to do for a long time. And it was on sale, really worth it… Usually each would be like $69.90 and above luckily now got sale. hehe... I also got myself an Astro Boy figurine (now stuck on top of my study table).

At home on occasion Sohrab requests to watch the Thomas & Friends videos. At first I thought it was boring. Actually watching Sohrab get excited over the shows was entertaining. Initially during the "Thomas" time I would get so wrapped up with other stuff that I did not really pay attention to the shows. Now, it has been a while since I watched Thomas (since Sohrab is in London to see the real Thomas the Tank Engine in Croydon) I realise the stories and visuals were actually entertaining. But after last coupla weeks of totally adult tv programmes I started to grasp that I actually miss Thomas & friends.

In the show, in every 5-10 minute segment, usually, one of the trains has a scowl on their face and is complaining about their work. Or they are jealous of the other trains. Or they are boasting about how they are the best. Or worried that their paint is not shiny enough. Or they are making fun of or picking on another train. Or they have some type of issue that can only be settled by Sir Topham Hatt. Most of the time they filled with negative vibe.

Now I know these stories probably teach some type of moral, but me, as an adult, I don’t see it or rather i ignore the fact that it is something we should be doing. And also, it makes me wonder if a little boy like Sohrab can pick up on the moral. Or are we (adult) all livin in some sorta denial? I know that in life, real people, family and friends can and will act like the characters from Thomas. Maybe the show is aimed at teaching kids that they just have to deal with the fact that people can be jerks. Or mebbe the whole show meant for adults in a indirect way.

Maybe I just don’t like Ringo Starr, who narrates most of the episodes… but I like the fact that Sohrab loves the shows.

teenage crushes...

This week has been fun filled as usual (sarcasm fully intended), the highlight of which being yet more of Lost. I have, somewhat frighteningly, developed a full blown teenage crush on Josh Holloway (sawyer)

It's slightly embarrassing really, I mean c'mon I'm pushing 30 something here! I thought my teenage years were long behind me. Oh well, the temptation to write is overwhelming, I mean it'd give me something more interesting than an ongoing stories ‘bout me. Meanwhile, In between Lost marathons, I managed to escape the house for a spot of retail therapy, subsequently bankrupting myself for the month, so I guess next Saturday will be spent at home too!

I'm rapidly descending into spinsterhood, if only Josh (or someone equally yummy) would come and sweep me off my feet and away to New York for a weekend of shopping... (ahhh I wish) Until then, Lost marathons and Teddy Bears it is. *sigh*

I've attached a photo of Sawyer for the viewing pleasure of all the other single ladies in the world ;-)

Smoochies until next time...

the ongoing chronicles of sri

My quality of life had still not improved. As a matter of fact, in many ways it’s sorta deteriorsting. It’s getting difficult to put one foot in front of the other. Everything around me is suffering because I have been suffering. I could foresee that if I didn’t get help for my condition, I wouldn’t make another year without ending up in nut-house.

Thankfully, I found a family! not mine though, im liking it. It’s is a new adventure for me. I’ll write more about this soon, but I’m thrilled that I am able to connect up with my new family members. Of course, my ‘other’ family is always will b my real family… but i'm glad that i am actually living in a sorta unfeigned family now.

Mr & Mrs Manjeet, Sohrab, Sahil and the animals are wonderful to me and I am having a great time. I am looking forward to spend more time with them but not sure whether it will be proper.
Anyway, thanks to the Dhillans for letting me barge into their lives and disrupting things. It is a joy and a dream come true for me! Thanks!

So I have a blog...

i am still new to the blogging world, having only discovered it a couple of years earlier, but ignorance is bliss and I thought I'd give it a test drive.

A story with a not very happy beginning

I have a confession to make. After dating hundreds of men over the course of my spinsterhood, after too many first dates to count, after believing my heart must not function like everyone else's and, most significantly, after the epiphany of 2005 that showed me that indeed, my heart was NOT functioning like everyone else's.

Yes - still maneuvering the streets of KL, nervous and unsure of myself with desires and passions that hidden under the surface as well as in a scrapbook called “Possibilities.” - Sri