if shoe fits

I have these situations where I guess I get bored or something and I create a crush. Obviously, since I created it and it’s not really backed up with true feelings, it’s not a big deal. It probably shouldn’t even be called a crush. And before you think it, no, I am not leading people on. It’s more of like a way to pass time while bored or when trying to get over a real crush. It’s a true non-crush. So, I guess I’d have to call it a non-crush.

My 50-something man is my non-crush. Sure, he’s probably really hott to some girls and I bet those same girls would give anything for some attention from him but I have no interest really. Well, when I was doing some re-search on him (so much for no interest!!) I did come across this twenty something malay chick blog ‘bout him. I thought it was tacky… twenty something! Malay chic! Mannnn… apparently she was his intern or something. When r these gals gonna leave our men alone! They’re goin after even the 50-something guys!? And my fifty something guy is aint any guy. He is some-guy, don’t get me wrong, but he is definitely one of those who I sit around daydreaming about. But the question here is do I have a real crush on him? No way. I hardly know him… as for him, I dun think he even remembers the existence of little ms sirilah. And I doubt even in the future he’ll ever EVER notice me. –period-

I had a little chat ‘bout him with Jane, well, Jane is not into him at all. She says tat he has playboy kinda look. Well, mebbe he is! Or not! Who the hell care!

Anyway, I guess one could say my weekend was super unexciting since I have nuthing to write about except for my non-crush.

August is sucha crappy month.

'and this is my adopted daughter'

the poignant story of a child trying to find her identity in the unknown life!

I dont know what happened to my 'no-expectation' theory - how silly! i'm dreadfully down today! all for one reason "expectation". I should have known better...