good triumphs over evil? i doubt that!

I am curious where people stand on this topic. It seems to be one of those that float around in various subjects such as religion and spirituality. With the common belief that "don't worry because in the end, good always triumphs over evil."

I am of the belief that it is just a fairy tale. I think that a more accurate statement is that most of the time evil triumphs over good and it’s not the other way round. Trust me, I just had a sudden experience meeting a living proof of an evil!

Our world is built on power. The people who run the world have all the power - the same amoral people who will get away with things. And of course the other group - decent, gentle and kind people are pretty much screwed in this world.

I guess we can look at when "good has triumphed over evil". Probably a prime example would be the allies defeating the Nazi's in WWII. Unfortunately though, we are far from some sort of benevolent entity. The history surrounding WWII doesn't show a whole lot of "good" anywhere, just varying degrees of evil. We keep replacing one master with another. The end is still the same. Average people exploited for the benefit of the few.

Sometime I really wish I could believe that in the end good will triumphs over evil, but right now I only think it is something we tell ourselves so we can sleep at night.

sleep tight...

I have to be up in roughly four hours to get ready for work. Why am I not asleep?

Because going to sleep involves turning the music off, disconnecting from the internet, getting in my bed and clearing my head in order to drift off to sleep... Can I clear my head, though? Not at all.

I'll cry if i want to...

Last coupla weeks has been trying and nerve-racking; and there were several moments where I wanted to burst out crying in the office. Yes, I am going to admit it, I am an emotional person. There was even a point in the week when an old friend called to get an update and I just explained I couldn't talk work stuff because I was at work and I didn't want to have a break down. Let me just say this, working in a large organisation has been beyond stressful.

This got me thinking though, how many of you have cried in the workplace? Seen a colleague cry? And how do you handle it?

Stress is my major point of weakness when it comes to wanting to burst out into tears. It may be long hours, some insane and demonically possesed people at work or a pending deadline that goes off track, but crying is a source of release for me. In the beginning of my career, managing this kind of stress was so new to me that it lead to many crying sessions and more than I would care to admit. However over the last several years I have gotten better about managing this stress and have learned how awful it really is to cry in front of my colleagues and bosses. It makes me feel weak and less respected, so now I avoid it all costs.

For me, learning to manage my tears has come with time and I know there are still lots to learn when it comes to stress management. Here are several things that I do:

· Take a short 5-10 min toilet break
· Take a coffee or lunch break
· Do something personal to clear my mind off of work
· Walk outside and make a phone call
· Make a to do list to map out how I am going to get everything done
· Take deep breaths
· Turn on my mp3 player for a little bit

One thing I learned not to do unless I have a friend working with me that I trust, is to go crying to a colleague. If my tears are about to come when I am talking to someone, I quickly end the conversation and head for a private location.

Now reversing roles, what do you do if its someone else who is shedding tears? When this happens to me, my number one thought is get them out of sight of everyone else who might be able to see that they are crying. I usually suggest we get out of the office to continue to address what is going on. Then from there I make sure they know I am there for them and this session will be between us only. If its stress I try to unburden them and see what I can do to take a load from them, otherwise I just listen and try to be a good listener-and that's all.

Maybe god always has a reason for allowing bad things to happen

This is not a political post but I would like to underline few issues that some of us are facing on daily basis in our lives. These are serious issues and sometime I wonder why not many are taking it seriously? Some of us are even have become immune to it. It’s discrimination; in my opinion we all have the right to not be discriminated against based on simple things like gender, race or even size of our waist. And I strongly agreeing to the fact that in life naturally liberals tend to have two sets of rules, one set that applies to all of those who liberals label as ‘victims’, and another set of rules that apply to everyone else.

Most types of discriminations are very subtle. While not legal, these discriminations happen on daily basis and believe it or not almost all of us being discriminated one way or another in our lives. And if you can prove it’s happening you might have legal remedies, but how can you prove it? More often than not, you can’t. For example, one of the worst places for such discrimination is in the workplace. Imagine, you just won’t get that promotion, raise or that special bonus you've been hoping for and you may “know” that it’s because you’re belong to that minority group or you belong to a weaker gender (as if we gonna get PMS and ruin the whole empire) or just because you are an overweight person. Now you tell me, how can we prove this? by complaining it to the authorities? I don’t think any of this going to work… the truth is, there is nothing you can do about it! You just have to accept the faith! Or perhaps look for better place to work; the think is no one can assure that you will not face the similar problem at the other place.

When the news of some colleagues receiving promotions or a higher salary than us certainly creates all sorts of negative feelings among employees. So, when it happens to me, I assume it would be a right timing for me to present my case asking for salary review. I guess one of the biggest taboos at work is to talk about salary; it creates dissatisfaction among both employees & employers. I was just plain curious why some get to climb the ladder much faster than the rest… because they are really better than us or was it because they are prettier & glamour-er than us? Oooooor was it because their hair is much straighter than mine!!?? I must also say that most people are normally not content with their salaries, I know I do sometime I guess it’s a normal human condition. Some even goes to the extend of believing that they are the one working harder that the rest – but in my case, I had pretty acceptable reasons and I said it loud and clearly – in fact I l listed in bullet points that I do deserve this. And, I didn't say that I am better than them, I just said that I’m equally talented and I deserve a chance as well.

It has been a while since I request for this with my work place – I guess it has been deliberately forgotten since there was no whatsoever response from them. Of course then there were all sorts of questions keep popping up in my head… What went wrong here? I'm not saying that I have been discriminated here but I'm keep wondering what is the problem? Why am I not getting any answers? Or perhaps my performance is actually not so good? Maybe my superior is not happy with something I did which I’m not aware of? Or perhaps it is all because of the skin colour… because I’m not one of them! Or even because I’m fat and not fit to work and that I’m a slob… How can I figure this out unless they would have at least tried to acknowledge my request! Why i was not even given a chance?

Seriously, with this kind of treatment I’m getting, how can I not to contemplate the fact that there is a discrimination factor here? … are they are saying that all those people are really better than me? If seriously they are not then why can't they at least consider looking at request and work through my strengths and guide me with my weaknesses so that I’ll have my fair chance in future? Now, it all seems like they not right! It’s more like who I am or rather what colour is my skin rather than what I can do for this organisation :(

I guess it’s normal because believe it or not I am one of those who have been affected in a great length in my whole life - being discriminated in the past and it's still going on... I actually learnt the hard way of being a minority in a society and it was not easy. Discrimination against race, gender and being fat is happening everyday. I also learnt that being me at this point of time - in this country - is certainly not a hip thing. And no one who is not an INDIAN FEMALE & OBESE will ever understands this… As for me, for all the trails I've encountered; I am still far from being humble or patient on things like this. However, the only consolation I have right now is, I just tell myself everyday that maybe god always has a reason for allowing bad things to happen.