Hi all,
January, February and now March
seems like flying by…
And, I’ve sat down to write this
post almost everyday for the past one week and have gone through a million
different variations in my mind. In some ways…
mostly related to life, work etc…
It’s Monday… I slept in on both
Saturday & Sunday, went to coffee place and read the papers (yes, the print
version) and watched tons of movies… Forest Gump, X-men 2, LOTR the two towers,
Angels & demons etc. Also, some reflecting back moments in my life. I love
being taken back to moments; some are good, some are not… For example – the day
my dad was killed in an accident! January 28th, 1998, it has been 14
years, still brings tears in my eyes if I reflect back on the thought of it.
Well, this isn’t an easy road…
but it’s the road we all find ourselves on. The small victories are milestones
along the way just as the losses are around-about life lessons. But thanks to
both!
I think it is absolutely amazing
how universe often takes us down paths in life, which we never imagined we’d
led down. How life tugs us different direction, that we never even seen as an
option. Every step we take is a new lesson to be learned.
I’ve notice people are ‘always’
quick to complaint about how miserable they are. I know I do most of the time!
But really, what have we done to change that?
I’m keep-hearing remark(s) from
my friends that if you’re not happy with your job, leave it. There are tons of
jobs that will fit your needs that you can put your god given talents into. So,
I’ve made my mind, instead of complaining 'bout it all day long, I’d decided to
leave! Find another job where people actually able to value my capability,
knowledge and most importantly can hear my voice. Still looking for one though I know
I’ll get one sooner or later.
Its feels like I’ve wasted so
much time here. When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts, do things my own,
stand up for myself, my beliefs… they call me a bitch, immature and problematic
staff. No matter how difficult or confusing the path was… I stayed on all these
while here because deep down inside I always believed that the boss is still a
good man… a man of his word! I know I’m not perfect and I can’t pretend to be
one as well. But for what he has done or rather behaved in last coupla weeks, I
seriously wish that I could/should/would have… tell him off… to his face that
I’m smart, capable and most importantly I am free in all ways you are not. It’s
my right to make few mistakes and if you can’t accept few of my imperfections,
that’s your fault. At least I have the courage to speak my own thoughts and be
honest about myself. And, I have guts to share my fears, vulnerabilities, tears
and insecurities. What do you have? A fake and a life full of pretends and
denials?!
Anyway, screw them all…
I’m not
going to let these people to ruin my life!
Last few days, I’ve been
thinking a lot on this…. On how to move on! Well, growth… that was my one word
universe often takes us down paths in life. And truthfully, only time can reveal the meaning behind each step that we
take, and each direction that we walk, in life.
I’ve always been a kind of individual
who finds happiness in the simplest of things. But I must admit, the magnitude
of happiness is amazing… when you sit back and allow the universe to lead you
down most unexpected paths, that one of the most unexpected paths, that he
ultimately already knew he’d direct you towards.
So, this is it! I’m moving on… to a new path, towards new direction. But I know there are many hills upfront…